Eyes on the Target

 

Approximately 2 years of gruesome studies. 2 years of learning all those formulas. 2 years of inking all those pages with answers. 2 years of filling tons of notebooks with long lecture notes. 2 years of living a lifeless life and the reason for all this is just a week away. 

Wait, wait let me breathe, ten short, five long, ok now I am composed. Nothing to panic about. I mean there is just the most important paper of my entire life next week. What do I have to panic about? Ok, I know half of you might not even open this blog lest reach up till here. But if you took out 5 mins of your precious time this 15th january. So, I would like to say all the best for the JEE MAIN 2023 January attempt. 

At this moment All the Best really helps. I am trying to collect all of the ‘All the Bests’ now. 

Wait a minute I am trying to remember something. Hess law what was that. Oh, it's just the summation of enthalpies in the independent steps. 

Oh, sorry for the sidetrack but I get these sudden formula flashbacks everytime nowadays. 

When NTA announced the date back in Dec 15 22 I released my last blog and instead of commenting on that blog many of you kindly reminded me that JEE date had arrived. 

You know it's not my fault that NTA likes the 15th date too. I like dropping my blogs on 15 as a mid-month motivation. But NTA gave us a jolly scary end of year surprise. 

It was like months of silence on the border and then sudden firing. The initial panic was nerve wracking but my parents helped me to calm down. Even the teachers say now is the time to revise what all we had done instead of breaking into something new. 

It helps these, motivational talks, but just looking at books makes my heart beat faster. I would really love to go a few months back when I was studying so calmly and easily. I can catch up on all the missed hours. 

I don’t know why this time is so hard. We recently turned adults(or to be adults) are thrown into such stressful conditions where we have pre boards and JEE in the same month and the next month boards are upon us. Then JEE next attempt, then other entrance exams like BITSAT and if we clear stage 1 there is JEE Advance and so I am super booked till June 2023. 

I miss it when the only serious exam time was just in the month of march and not for half a year. 

I know, I shouldn’t panic, it would lead me nowhere but it just happens. I end up losing temper on silly things. I am tired all day but at night my dreams are filled up with nightmares in which I can't even solve the easiest of  questions. 

In these times how everything is against us. Firstly, mother nature. It is insanely cold these days and studying in blanket is virtually impossible for me. If any of you can study like this, tell me how you can. 

While sitting on my desk and after an hour or so I find that I have lost the feeling in my toes or my right hand quits to write. 

Secondly, schools. I don’t know why they choose January for pre boards or why they took all the practicals now. Come on CBSE at least you could have reduced our stress instead of giving English projects on ‘Increasing rate of stress in students’. 

It is so scary to imagine what the paper will be like. What if I forget the lanthanide series. I would be devastated. I don’t know about so many things. So many concepts that I had just glanced because there was not just much time. I don’t think I have done a lot of questions. Maybe I should give one more mock test or ten more. I panic and overthink a lot. 

It feels as if I am sailing in a dark and vast ocean and the shore is nowhere near. A single wrong push can lead me into abyss. I guess some of you too might feel this way or may be many of you too. 

Even AIR 1 must feel a flutter of nervousness before the exam because he/she had a greater target to achieve before the exam. 

All of us had set a goal to achieve before the exam and we even kept some higher expectations to do if we had time. Since we all have put in time preparing for it may be 2 yrs, 1 and a half year, 1 yr or some even 4-5 years we shall all gain rewards for our hard work. 

Life is like a ladder. In front of us stands a staircase of colleges. From the Best engineering colleges to not the good.

How hard we work we will end up landing on one of the steps and wherever we reach that college will become our own little world and the other places won't just matter.

At the end of this year we all will be somewhere. But if we want to be satisfied there we need to put in our efforts now, we need to give our best shot at the target and just see how close it lands at the bullseye. 

These are indeed stressful and tiring times. We should not forget what our true aims or goals are. Until we see the bird's eye in the branch we will be able to shoot it. 

The way it is now I feel it is even hard to write down something which is not physics, chemistry or Maths. But it always feels good to hear that someone else is also feeling as nervous as you. 

So, in this note I would like to end my article with ALL THE BEST and well wishes. Hope we all nail this exam together.

Lets not lose our true feelings and nature due to this exam. Remember your smile and persona will last for life but these exams will not go beyond 2023.

So keep calm and keep revising. Let's see where we all land. 

And Thank You for reading this short piece of mine till the end. Your comments will be a kind of Best of Luck for me.